There is something to be said about loss. When a loved one dies, you don’t simply
lose that special friend… your entire world changes. Routines no longer are the same. It’s those early morning hours, the fleeting moments that
used to be occupied by daily walks and excitement for breakfast, that you feel that
twinge of emptiness. Places that
once brought comfort can become spaces of heartache. You are not simply robbed of that one life… the hopes and
dreams for what could have been are taken as well.
When Butters passed, he took a little bit of this blog with
him. It was our special time
together, as I would chronicle my experiences… our experiences… while we sat
together on the couch. He would
rest his little head on my lap, and the words would easily flow from fingertip
to page. It has not been so easy
since he left me. In fact, it has
been much harder than I could have anticipated. I never expected for my heart to be so deeply touched by one
little dog whom was taken so young. Returning to this blog
has reminded me that he is no longer here. I have returned many times to write, simply to find the words missing.
However, one of the beautiful things about life is as one
story ends, another begins. The
birth of my son, Leon, has brought many new adventures. I find myself missing this place, the
capsule for my memories. It is a
space where I can capture and share my experiences before they escape me. I want to explore the multitude of
feelings brought on by motherhood: the love and joy that exponentially expands
as my son grows… the transformation of nights out on the town into bath time
bubbles, talks about poop colors, and kissing tiny fingers and toes… the
challenging moments as I try to balance my roles as a wife, mother, and career
woman.
I want to begin again.
I want this space to again stand as a source of inspiration, pushing me
to take time to reflect on life’s special moments.
So, here is to new beginnings. Let me again share with you the snapshots of my life.
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